I just wanted to come on here and let you know my journey over the last 6 months. If it helps one person it will be worth it.
P L E A S E D O N ’ T G O O G L E . . .
If you need support or have a question then this is the place to be. Lots of lovely ladies going through the same as you.
Catastrophise everything you probably will but going on Dr Google will only make those worries worse. I know … I have doom scrolled and scrolled and been completely convinced that I was going to have an outcome that I couldn’t bare to deal with.
I have suffered Health Anxiety for years. The death of my parents and grandparents added to my fear of my own mortality. I have two little boys and that just added to my fear of leaving them without their Mum.
I had a Cervical Screen in August and waited for my results knowing I had tested positive for HPV for the last 2 screens. Sure enough I received the results that told me I had no abnormal cells but was HPV positive.
I had a date for Colposcopy and I went along and had biopsies taken. I had Cin 2 and 3 and my results were discussed at an MDT. I then had Lletz (which was painless and fine for me) but after the Lletz I had to wait a very very long 8 weeks for my results. It was in those 8 weeks that I decided I would be told worse case scenario, it was those weeks that I phoned Colposcopy asking for any news, it was those weeks that I tried everything to bring it up into conversations with friends so that they could reassure me, it was those weeks that I Googled and Googled and Googled stealing precious time from my life and filling me with fear.
Yesterday I received a letter to say I had been discussed at MDT again and the biopsies confirmed Cin 2 and 3. The team were happy with the outcome and want to do a Test Of Cure in 6 months time.
I know my story isn’t over yet but in the next chapter I know Im staying away from Dr Google.
You wonderful people helped me and I’m so grateful that I had this forum especially after Id frightened myself half to death on Google filled with Psycho Sues with scary stories!!!
Some ladies do have to fight the fight and to those ladies I want to show my love and respect to them for their strength and bravery.
Please remember that we have cervical screens for a reason and the wonderful people who work at Colposcopy want to help to keep us healthy. We are lucky that we are looked after in this way. So so lucky.
You are awesome for going through this and being brave enough to attend appointments. Please remember that.
Much love to all going through this too.