I am 24 years old (turning 25 in June) so just after Christmas I received my letter advising me to book a smear test. I booked it straight away as I have always felt strongly about women going or their cervical screenings and I wanted to just get mine out of the way, and hopefully not have to worry about it for another few years… Unfortunately that was not the case.
I don’t know how to describe it, but I just had that feeling. I even said to my partner after my smear test - ‘I think something is wrong’, probably because I noticed blood on the cotton bud the nurse used, and I guess my mind just went into overdrive. I have also bled after sex on a few occasions, but maybe being naive did not think anything of it.
I didn’t find out the best way, not through any fault of the NHS, in fact they were just too efficient!! I was away with work and received a text message just confirming my follow up appointment, before I had received any letters. So of course again my mind went into overdrive and spent the whole day dreading going home and reading my letters.
My results stated I have low grade changes, along with the HPV virus. So again, going into panic mode I then spent the rest of the evening on google and various websites trying to find out what this could mean, reading my leaflets over and over again. I did get very upset initially, and worried but then tried to put it to the back of my mind.
My colposcopy appointment is this Friday - and I am now starting to get very nervous again. Unfortunately I am one of those people who always think the worst, and now I am worried with a more detailed examination what they might find
My mum was diagnosed with cancer of the vulva when she was in her late 30s, which was caused partly because of the HPV virus, so I also have that playing on my mind too.
Reading other posts on here, I know a lot of you have been through a lot more, and you are all incredibly brave. I am not sure what I am expecting from this post to be honest, but I think I just need to talk to people who have been through the same. My boyfriend and my best friend (the only people aside from my mum I have told) have been great, but theres only so many times you can hear ‘I am sure it will be fine, nothing to worry about etc’ especially when they haven’t been through the same.
Sorry for the very long message - guess I just wanted to get it all off my chest!
The countdown to Friday begins… x