check up smear: very scared

Hi. I’ve had abnormal smears for the past three years and already two lletz and a cone biopsy. My check up smear is on Thu and I know that if it comes back abnormal again, it will be a hysterectomy. I’m so anxious, I can hardly breathe when I think about it. I know I need to calm down and that there is no point worrying before the results, but I just can’t help it!! I just needed to get this off my chest as I have nobody to talk to (we move a lot being armed forces) and my poor husband can’t always be my one-stop support shop! Thank you for reading.

Hi Oldhand,

Big hugs to you. I have everything crossed for you


Thank you. It does make me feel better. X

what is your biggest fear? The hysterectomy itself or loss of fertility or something else. Try and seperate the fear into the component parts and then it will be easier to tackle. Deep breaths really do help or get yourself outside for a stomp!