So weird. Off for a check up today and suddenly feel really anxious about it. More anxious than I have been at previous ones.
I think it's because I have been really trying to move forward lately and now this is forcing me to remember that it's not really over yet.
i also ran into my surgeon twice in the last week, once at the M&S cheese counter and again at a restaurant on Saturday. He's a cheery soul but its unsettling to keep seeing him out of context.
ah well, just got to push on through I suppose. Wish me luck, I'm going in!
It's funny how sometimes you worry about the check ups and other times your ok. Good luck, you will be fine. Think of it as another milestone ticked off. :-) xxx
Yes it was ok in the end. Different (but nice young) doctor to my usual one though, being treated at a teaching hospital means you don't always get the organ grinder. Still, he was very keen and rather sweet.
Did feel a bit weepy and unsettled afterwards though. Went back to work and fortunately I have a young male boss who suggested I go home early today. I think he was worried that I might start talking about vaginas in the office again.
Feel much better now I'm home and curled up on the sofa with a G&T. I'm sure I'll be my usual perky self tomorrow, but today I'm going to allow myself a small wallow.
Isn't it great when you have a male boss. Mine just says ok, do what you need to do, take the day off. Inside I know he is thinking don't tell me the detail and please DO NOT CRY. ha ha
I hope you are feeling better today. I take the whole day off for my 3 month check ups now and go shopping afterwards to treat myself to something nice. I try to focus on the nice part of the day. I still have a bit of a wobble but it seems to work for me. My next one is Friday and I have my eye on a pair of new shoes, lol ;-) Tess xxx
I get in a total pickle when I see the check up looming in the calendar. usually about 2 weeks before I start panicking about how my body feels and all of a sudden every ache and pain must be a sign of something sinister. I find it hard to sleep or concentrate.
My male boss also lets me work from home on check up day which is great. I meet my partner afterwards for a lunch and by then feel lots better!
I hope it went well Rosehip. I've been put on 4 month check ups now so slowly inching away :)
