I haven't posted for a while as I've been trying to move on a bit and not keep my head in the CC space every day. I'm coming up to my 9 month check up in a couple of weeks and of course without really paying much attention to it...Ive realised my body is displaying a lot of stress signs, I'm not sleeping, my teeth, angry, tearful etc and relating every ache and pain to being reoccurance!
I'm annoyed as my 6 month check up was cancelled due to her being ill. They couldn't reschedule due to me being on holiday/away with work, then it would have been 30 Dec by the time they saw me!! So I've had to settle for seeing a dr/consultant on the 9th Dec but I've no idea who this will be. Great follow up. Is it too much to ask to see the same person 4 times a year?
Anyways...at my 3 month and last check up all was fine but I was too scared to let them examine me. I shot off the bed and was shaking and totally clamped up down there. I really, really didn't expect this reaction so of course I'm now thinking it will happen again. And that becuase no one's checked me properly since my op I'm going to have all sorts wrong with me!
Oh my days, I'm not making it easy for myself am I?!
Does anyone have any pointers on relaxing during the exam? I have some strong codeine I will take before that makes me a bit woozy and happy!
Much love xx