I've just today had a colposcopy done and a biopsy taken after my first smear test showed mild changes (the low grade type) and that I have HPV. I'm waiting on the results.
I was just wondering if anyone has any insight into living a normal life while knowing this is going on in your body. I feel like I have a ticking time bomb inside of me that while it may not be serious now, the likelihood is that as time goes on it will get worse? I've been reading people's stories on this forum about getting treatment and then afterwards it comes back...
I want to have children someday and I'm getting quite down on myself that my previous sexual behaviour has meant that I have this virus that at any point in my life now can turn into cancer. I used to smoke from age 16 until the day I recieved my smear test results letter and I also can't stop thinking about that aswell and how reckless and stupid I've been with my health. A part of me wishes I could just get my cervix removed so I don't have to live constantly worrying about this.
Any reassurance or advice appreciated,