I don't even know what my question is really because I've read through all your posts and experiences and so I think you've answered a lot of my questions (at least the ones that can be answered right now.) I got the results from my first abnormal smear on saturday and they came back HPV positive and 'high grade (moderate) dyskaryosis' and I haven't been able to think about anything else since.
I spoke with my nurse who despite being very nice did nothing to reassure me as she said my results showed a combination of low grade and high grade changes, and that she couldn't comment further because she had never seen anything like that before. Needless to say that has only served to further freak me out.
I am 31 and have no children, and the idea that a) I might have cancer and b) that I might have missed my opportunity to be a parent is upsetting me so much. I havn't slept at all since the letter arrived.
How do you deal with the waiting? I am very close to raiding my savings to go to a private clinic just to get answers.