I received my first smear letter just before I was 25, I booked it that day, not because of symptoms but because I have always believed it is important. Result was abnormal cells, might sort themselves out so smear again in 6 months.
Second smear came bsck abnormal, referral to colposcopy. I freaked out, but got through it. A biopsy was done, CIN1 result. Come back in a year.
I get a GP letter for a smear in March 2017, came back as normal. Now that was party time, weight off my mind!
i then receive a letter from the colposcopy unit inviting me back for another one, 1 yr from the first. I freak out again, call the doctor asking if the smear result was reported wrong. I was assured it was a follow up from the biopsy, the smear was definitely negative. Brilliant, I'll go just for the 100% all clear and then forget all about it.
Colposcopy comes around, all calm and happy knowing it's fine. Told there is something a bit odd so 2 more biopsies taken. I'm confused and scared, but it's ok because it can't be bad if a smear was ok.
Results just though and CIN2 diagnosed, come back in 4 months. So the smear was just useless, and it has become worse than last year. I see that CIN2 generally should get treatment and I don't know what to expect, should I take days off work? In case I get treatment there and then? Should I get boyfriend/mum to come with me in case? How much of my cervix will I lose? Does it grow back? How long will I be in pain for? I have the coil so I know that has to be taken out if there's anything more than a biopsy, but I don't know when I can have another put in, if at all.
Generally I appreciate this is all pre stages, and I am calm-ish about that, but I'm still so clueless about the reality of it all, and hate that this 'abnormality' is inside me and I just have to wait another 4 months and I can't do anything in the meantime.
Any soothing words appreciated thanks: