I had my first smear last year which showed high grade changes but at colposcopy they suspected only low grade and took biopsies to confirm. This came back with cin1 hpv associated changes - exact strains were not tested for so no idea if high risk. Follow up smear in 1 year recommended which I had last month and again showed high grade changes. I had my colposcopy yesterday and the doctor confirmed it looked like moderate changes and performed a loop excision for me. Safe to say it was the worst medical procedure I have experienced to date. While I was rather uncomfortable following the biopsies last year the biopsies themselves weren't too horrific, just sharp stings. The local anaesthetic injections were another world I do not know how to describe. The nurse held my hand the entire time as soon as the doctor said she would remove the area so she was obviously expecting it to be uncomfortable at least. I have a high pain threshold so was taken aback by how much I felt the needle but managed to breathe and cough accordingly until I couldn't feel anything - then promptly went very faint once it was all over! It was a reasonably large area and my poor cervix looked like a bomb site at the end but the doctor assured me it would heal up to look like normal.
So today I feel very tender, swollen and sore and my vagina aches from the speculum. The water brown discharge is starting after a small amount of bleeding post lletz yesterday and we will see how it develops compared to the biopsies which I bled quite a bit after and had all sorts of strange secretions. Be prepared for that this time at least.
While I'm managing the physical aspects relatively well I just don't know how I feel emotionally. I want to rejoice that the cells are gone and I'm doing the right thing getting it seen to, but I'm anxious for the lab results. The area that was abnormal had changed from last year - my cin1 patch had cleared up and been replaced with a new worse patch elsewhere in the space of a year. So I'm already dreading the six month check up in case it comes back. I don't have children yet and the complications that can accompany lletz were stressed to me but I can't even consider planning children until I'm completely clear of abnormalities.
Sorry for the almost "dear diary" post just an emotional wreck and would like to share stories and support.