Two years ago I received my first pap smear (at 24 through a private health screen). The pap smear found I was HPV+ and had mild dyskaryosis, so my GP referred me to a colposcopy. The colposcopy found CIN 1 and told me to come back for another one in a years time. I ended up leaving the country for a bit so missed the colposcopy, and assumed that the cells would return to normal, as the doctor reassured me.
Now I'm over 25, I was invited for my first cervical screen on the NHS earlier this year. Again, the smear test found I had low grade dyskaryosis but this time they found I was positive for high-risk HPV (previous smear test said I had a low-risk strain)! They referred me to another colposcopy, which I had a month ago now. The doctor took a biopsy and said I should receive the results in a few weeks.
My GP notified me two weeks ago that they received a letter from the doctor saying they found high-grade CIN in the colposcopy but that they were still waiting for the biopsy results.
It's been a month now and I'm sick with worry so I ended up calling the hospital to see if the results had come in yet. They told me another appointment has been booked for next month at the colposcopy clinic, but the receptionist couldn't find what it was for or the results of my biopsy.
Now I'm freaking out. If my results were CIN 1, then surely they would have just said to come back next year or in 6 months time. The fact that this appointment is next month suggests its for an excision, which is something I'm terrified about. I've been feeling down in the dumps all year since I received my high risk HPV diagnosis, and I'm worrying about the future, and if I'll be able to have a healthy pregnancy one day.
I feel quite embarrassed about the whole thing, so I've only told my close friend and my ex, but I don't want them worrying too much so I'm keeping most of these thoughts to myself.
Any experiences / support / advice would be really appreciated, I don't know anyone who has gone through this in real life xx
