I'm so glad I found this forum. I feel like my life is falling apart.
A few weeks ago I went for my first cervical smear test. In my area we get offered screening 6 months before our 25th birthday. I have health anxiety and because of this I couldn't wait to go for it and put my mind at rest. A week later I received a letter saying my sample is HPV positive and I have high grade (moderate) dyskaryosis. I had the HPV vaccination when I was 15 so this came as a big shock. I now know that the vaccine does not protect against all HPV. I didn't think I had any symptoms but now I think about it, I have irregular bleeding quite a lot - I have an implant and figured that this is what was causing it.
I got an appointment for a colposcopy 6 days later and saw a consultant. Because I was going abroad the following week she said she didn't want to do any treatment until I got back as the no swimming rule would ruin my holiday.
I'm now back from my holiday and had the colposcopy yesterday. She did the treatment there and then to remove the abnormal cells and sent the sample to the lab for testing. She told me before the procedure that my chances of having actual cervical cancer are minimal but they still occasionally get positive cc results come back that they weren't expecting. My anxiety is running wild. I thought that if I had cancer it would have shown up on the smear, now I'm so worried there's still a chance. The consultant didn't say anything about what my cervix looked like during the procedure or if she thought there was anything more than pre cancerous cells.
I'm now waiting for the results and feeling very tearful. I'm off sick from work and been prescribed antidepressants by the GP to help with the anxiety. I feel like a bit of a fraud as there are such brave people fighting cancer everyday and I haven't actually been diagnosed.
