So, after a consultation with the private consultant this morning, and yet another episode of me crying at my normal gp's office this afternoon (this time at the receptionist!) I have decided to have my colposcopy privately. The consultant was just lovely!!! He listened to everything I had to say, and even cracked a few jokes. There was no rush, and I honestly felt like I was having a catch up with an old friend! Anyways, he booked me in for tomoro morning and didnt even charge me for todays consultation because he said it was ridiculous to make me pay for a consultatiom today and then for another one when I actually go for the colposcopy! Despite going in there really stressed out and basically pouring my heart out about all of my experiences lately, i left the office with a smile on my face! Me and the nurse had a lovely wee gossip while he made a call to book my colp... it just seemed like everyone had a genuine interest in making me feel comfortable!
Totally freaked out about tomoro but trying to stay busy and not think too much about it right now!