I've just joined and wanted some advice. I'm 35 and have just started bleeding inbetween periods and have never had a smear test in my life. I have a history of childhood sexual abuse which is partly why I haven't been-it's too traumatic-I suffer from severe PTSD but I'm now a little worried. I have the opportunity to go for one at my local GUM clinic on Monday and have arranged for a friend to come with me but I'm bottling it and feel too scared to go In the back of my mind there is some sense that it is something I should do. I just don't know, I'm confusing myself.