Thank you SO MUCH ladies. Your words have really helped make me step back from a full scale panic.
Becky, I remember you mentioned you bled at your smear. I had the same set of circumstances; took while for the speculum to go in properly, she was wriggling it around for ages cos she couldn’t see my cervix as it was ‘being shy’ (I wonder why?!) and I was of course very tense and nervous. When I arrived, she said she was going to take my blood pressure and I had to ask her to wait cos my heart was pounding!
She also said that about my cycle – my period was about a week and a half ago too so that is massively reassuring that you were in the same boat. Although at the time I couldn’t remember it, she was asking me when it was and how many days I had to go in my cycle and I was like, “er, I’m trying not to cry/panic/hyperventilate here, I couldn’t even tell you what day it is!!”
Also, this surgery is a contrast to my last one. There, the nurses were great – calm, professional and I never had any discomfort. Here, it feels more uncomfortable – OK, so that’s probably because of what has happened and I’m more tense than before (ah, those happy days where I’d never even heard of a LLETZ!). Still, they are a bit clumsy handed and the examination bed is so short – I am 5 “8 and I cannot get comfortable! I had my face practically mashed up the wall and there was no room for her to stand at the end of the bed so she was at the side, it was not a good fit!
I’m trying to stay calm and give myself the following reassurances:
· When my smear was abnormal, it was mild dysk and low grade CIN was removed (according to my post LLETZ letter).
· I had a check-up only 6 months ago which was normal.
· I’ve had no symptoms or discomfort at all.
· I don’t think I’ve seen a case on here where CC has been diagnosed following a normal smear 6 months ago – unless of course the smears were misread BUT LET’S NOT GO THERE!
Thanks for reading and sorry for the rambling – it helps to type it all out. Still feeling a bit tearful but calming down. It’s not good I have to wait till the 24th but them’s the breaks I guess.