I’m the same as you. Completely blindsided going from nothing to CIN3, which I know is not THE worst you can get but when you read about it all - CIN3 sounds pretty bad. If it had been deemed that sort of level of changes after my smear, I know I would’ve been seen a lot sooner. I got told “that’s just how it is sometimes”, which wasn’t exactly a huge comfort.
The main thing is, we kept up with our smears and it’s hopefully getting sorted. I’m trying not to read too many tales from those who had LLETZ and then had to have further treatment still because I’d drive myself mad. But having the results letter looming over me in the near-future certainly doesn’t help my mood at times.
And just to show how much this is affecting me, I forgot to take my pill for the first time in over 12 years last night! I was switched to the progesterone-only pill earlier this year so I set an alarm as well now. But because I feel completely sexless at the moment (not just due to the ban on intercourse but because I’m also feeling miserable) I think my brain just switched off regarding the importance of actually getting a glass of water and taking the pill.
My husband joked that of all the times to forget “the time when we still can’t have sex for two weeks is probably the best!” - which I admit did cheer me up a bit. It is pretty funny that NOW is the time I decide to be forgetful.
Regarding 3 years for smears…I got told at my smear (in November) that if the result came back as no HPV, they don’t check for abnormalities and you move on to a 5 year recall. Not sure how I feel about that after this experience to be honest. Not entirely good…