As I was writing yeaterday I was in a very good mood and very positive about going to my treatment.... I even had a one moment where I think "My mood is too good to be true, something will go wrong..." But that was a moment only. My mood really high..
But... unfortunatelly despite my positive attitude it didnt go the way I expect...
As I went to hospital I had a chat with nurse who explained me everything and i had my blood pressure checked. Then I found myself on chair waiting for procedure, which nurse said will take only 5 minuts. The other nurse was keeping me busy taking with me while the other done injection to apply anasthetic. And this is where all started to go wrong. I did not expect that at all. I didnt feel actual injection, any sting or anything like that, I didnt feel it at all. But reaction of my body was instant. It feels like it goes straight to my head, I warned nurse immediately that I am fainting, and that was it. Procedure couldnt be carried out. Worst and most scary part of it was that my hands and legs started to feel numb. On one side I felt it was a shame that they couldnt finish it of on the other side I am thinkin - maybe thats what supposed to happen - maybe it will never turn to cancer and I dont need to procedure. I do believe that everything happen for reasons. So despite what happen I do not feel down.
As I did not wanted to book to have it done under GA either I asked if there are any other options for me. Nure said my abnormal area is small and she can not see anything dangerous in it, but as I didn have biopsy done they cant rule out anything and I should have at least biopsy done. BUT. If I have so bad reaction to injection how can let them do it? Omg. So in the end she decided to book me in august to see senior doctor, senior colposcopist to have consultation with and discuss if it will be safe for me to just to wait and watch. So I ll do that for now.
I decided as well I will try natural therapy with neuropath doctor. I contacted one of the best neuropath in London and he said he is pretty confident that he can help reversing my cin as he done it before and it was quite easy. I done lot of reaserches before and I do believe it can help. The reason why I did not decided to do it before was becouse I was thinkin surgery will be just quicker. But now in this situation I feel I have nothing to loose. Anyway I will be waiting now for my consultation in august so instead of sitting and doing nothing I will try this natural therapy :) Still feeling very positive.
I hope my story didnt put of anyone,everyone is diffrent, everyone react diffrent. Well my cervix certainly doesnt like to be touched !! ...for sure not by needles ! :))
And very important message to you all --->Don’t let the attitude of worried individuals contaminate your mind. Concern from doctors and loved ones is genuine, but feelings of fear and worry will become toxic and effect your healing process. There is no room for any negativity! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you are diagnosed with dysplasia do not let anyone (including your medical doctor) evoke panic in you. Concern is usually genuine but being around those who are in constant worry or expecting a negative outcome will effect you with their toxic thinking.