Update 3 days post LLETZ number 2:
Firstly, I want to start by saying wow! My recovery this time round is completely different to last time! I have not had sore vaginal walls or outer vagina at all. This makes me think it must have been that large speculum last time.
I've still experienced some pain, but just the dragging and tugging you might get during a particularly painful period and an achiness in my pelvic bones and lower back.
I've not had any real discharge until today. Last few days was just the liquid they'd used coming out.
Today though, true to form like last time on day 3, came the lumpy disgusting fleshy thing! Eurgh! Which isn't flesh at all, it is just the paste they apply to stop you bleeding.
As soon as that left my body I've started with discharge and lots of it.
But I'm feeling so much better this time round!
I thought it might be helpful to list the questions I asked during my appointment and the answers my consultant gave:
Why has my cancer grown quicker than 10-20 years?
If it took 10 to 20 years for cancer to grow, we would only do smears every 10 years... Stop googling!
Can you see when I had my last smear?
No, ask GP.
How much of my cervix is being removed today?
Likely the same amount as last time but I'll decide when I see your cervix.
Will you be using the liquids on my cervix again today?
Yes, the iodine.
When can I have a bath? (last time I was told after 6 weeks).
Have you been googling again? You do not have to wait at all. You can have a bath tonight even. (After they removed so much they did change this to waiting at least 24 hours).
I got a urine infection last time, does this mean I'm more likely to get one again?
It is a procedure with a moderate risk of infection due to where it is, but having had an infection previously doesn't mean you are more prone to one this time.
Please can I have a picture of my cervix for beautifulcervix.com? (Yes, I dared to ask!)
Yes of course you can have a pic of your beautiful cervix. And thereafter everytime my cervix was mentioned he called it beautiful haha!
Will we book my appointment for results today?
Your results have to go to our pathology lab and then after that they will go to the specialist pathologist again. It's best we don't book your appointment until we know we have all the information.
Please can I see my macmillan nurse today?
Yes, I'll call her now for you and she'll meet you in the coffee area after we finish up.
Can my breast lump be linked to cervical cancer?
In my 30 years of working I have never come across anyone with cervical cancer moving to breast cancer or vice versa.
He wasn't as abrupt as my responses above, I've just kept it clear and simple here.
I saw my GP on Tuesday. She immediately could feel the lump and also found a lump in my right breast. She said she is certain that they are fibrocystic breast disease (not cancer or a precursor to cancer). But she has referred me on the urgent cancer pathway given my current situation and I'll have an appointment within two weeks. She also said if I don't have an appointment through by Friday to give the secretary a call and they will chase it up for me.
We also spoke about my heightened anxiety right now and trouble sleeping and she has given me anxiety medication and antihistamines that have drowsiness as a side effect to help me sleep.
So along with my antibiotics for my inflamed gynae area, I feel like I'll rattle when I walk! ?
I am feeling much better though. Although, I had friends plan to come round each day and so far the first one didn't show, and apologised due to something coming up.
Second one showed but her toddler wasn't happy so they had to go pretty quick, and third today called just before she was due and said couldn't come after all.
So that's felt pretty rubbish. They have no idea of the efforts I've gone to to try and make the house look half decent when I've not meant to have been doing anything! But hey ho, that's life! And I know it doesn't revolve around me.
I just wish they'd told me they weren't coming days before, instead of after all the effort had been made if that makes sense?
I hope you are all doing okay? I have been thinking of you all often. Lots of love xxx