*Trigger warning for sexual abuse*
Hi,
I am 24 and recieved the letter inviting me to my first cervical screening a few days ago, the thing is I am absolutely terrified and have been ever since I found out they were a thing.
I was sexually abused in my early teens and am trying to weigh up wether to have my cervical screening now or not. I desperately want to go ahead with it as I know how important they are, and I don't want to let the abuse stop me from looking after my health. However of the flip side I am terrified of how the appointment will affect me mentally, I really think there is a chance it could set me back massively just as I was starting to recover. And that's not to mention if I found I needed any further treatment.
I really think I could go through with it with some support but I don't have any. I have had counselling in the past but can no longer afford this and there is nothing free in my area. I have no close female friends, and I don't have much contact with my family and live over 120 miles away from them. I'm fairly confident my boyfriend wouldn't agree to come with me. I just feel so alone and scared and upset that I may not be able to bring myself to do this, it feels unfair.
I just wondered if any of you lovely people had any advise or words of encouragement?