Looking for a bit of reassurance from ladies in the know.
First my history. In 2009 I had CIN1 absnormal cells and was referred for colposcopy. They did a biopsy and confirmed that they were CIN1 cells but I had no further treatment - just 6 monthly smears. That was when I lived in Norwich. I think I had another smear after that that was still abnormal but wasnt referred for another coloposcopy. About a year after I had the abnormal cells, I moved to Manchester. It was a bit of a dynamic time - moved several times in a few months and didnt know whether I was coming or going. I probably went about a year without having a smear. I belatedly resumed smears in manchester and have had at least three possibly 4 since - all of them came back as normal. The last one was in January and was normal. However I have had post coital bleeding off and on ever since 2009. I also had a polyp removed in 2012 and it was sent for analysis and came back clear. I never actually got the results from it until my next smear test, which also came back clear. My last result said I had been put back on three year frequency. Happy days I thought.
This saturday, for fertility awareness reasons I was checking my cervix for the first time when I noticed it felt very lumpy. Cue panic etc. I got a very quick appointment with my GP (impressed) who took a look and said it didnt look sinister - it looed like a fleshey warty growrth, but because I was distressed, she would urgently refer me to gynae for an appointment to check it out. I got my appointment yesterday (again, impressed at the efficiency) and its on 23rd July, which feels like a long way away.
I'm stressing out now that all of my normal smear results were wrong and have missed the abnormalities, which have been left to get worst over the last 5 years. Even just being examined on monday has left me spotting blood until today - surely thats a bad sign!
Very upest as I had been trying to concieve but now my mind is racing thinking about hysterectomy, infertility, death etc. So how many people get CC who had normal smears and just bleeding as symptom? I'm one of those people that can imagine pain as well - if I have reason to believe something should ache I can feel it ache. Its hard to know whats in my head and whats real sometimes!
Any words that can talk me down off this edge of worry would be very much appreciated. Sorry for long rambly post as well.