Hi. I was given the all clear in Jan 14. I got on with life but always with the worry of it coming back not to mention getting over the whole business in the first place. In October 14 I was disgnosed with VAIN (like CIN) and had to have another minor op.
This had quite an effect on me. In so much as I really could not waste another second worrying about it coming back, because if it will it will, there's nothing I can do about it, and IF, big IF, it comes bavk I don't want to have to look back and think what time I wasted worrying. After that 2nd op I've had a much better attitude. Getting on with life, not worrying, taking each day as it comes.
Last week I had a 3 monthly follow up and am waiting on results. It's really hit me hard and I saud to my Mac nurse I just want to forget it ever happened and 'crack on'
so, in answer to you, I think that fear us always there, but it lessens over time, but rears its ugly head up when check ups and follow ups are due. One small blessing I suppose is with CC if it's going to come back it comes back within 2 years for the vast najority of cases. Once we all reach the 2 year mark we can breathe even more freely.