Update 5 weeks and 2 days after second LLETZ:
I've still heard absolutely nothing and I'm really fed up of people asking me if I have results yet and then responding that it must mean it's good news as if it wasn't they would have been in touch by now.
It wasn't good news last time and it took them 10 weeks to tell me I had cancer. They said it's because it is a difficult cancer to diagnose.
I don't really know, what that means, but it does mean that I'm getting really frustrated with people's responses.
I've even had, two people who I don't really know well and who don't know one another congratulate me on getting the all clear. I have no idea what has brought them to that conclusion but I didn't correct them. What is the point. People see and hear, what they want to.
I stopped taking my pill on Saturday for my 7 day break and I haven't started on my period yet, but I'm guessing I'm pretty hormonal right now and that has a little to do with today's rant.
I'm just so fed up of waiting. I really believed that this time round I'd have the results within 4 weeks. Two weeks at the hospital lab, two weeks at the specialist lab, bam, here's your results! Wishful thinking?
Since being diagnosed I have also diagnosed myself with breast cancer (now ruled out), bowel cancer, anal cancer, stomach cancer, bladder cancer, ovarian cancer, uterine cancer and a brain tumour. If that isn't health anxiety I don't know what is.
Every twinge, every niggle, every thought.... It must be cancer. I've never in my life experienced health anxiety and logically I know it's highly unlikely I have any of these cancers, but my mind still keeps going into overdrive.
From what I have read, this is fairly normal for anyone with a cancer diagnosis. So, I'm doing my best not to feed it. I've decided not to mention anything to the doctors right now as I know I am just following a normal behaviour pattern and that in time it will pass.
I would really just like my results though. The longer I wait the more anxious and down I feel.