bit of a strange one. My cancer journey has been going on for 4 years. My Cancer has never done what has been expected by my consultant. I've had constant issues with delays, cancelled appointments, delays in treatment etc!
ive had chemo, radio twice, surgery to remove a lot of my pelvic bits and bobs. But still my Cancer is relentless! I was told two years ago it was incurable but they would deal with symptoms as they appeared. I was given a year, to which I've far exceeded. Anyway I recently had surgery to remove two new tumours, it was major surgery and I'm still recovering.
My issues are this, every time I'm due to have something done a random act seems to prevent it, for example this week I was due to have a PET CT, true to form it was cancelled on Monday because they haven't got the right medication delivered for me then the scanner broke for my next appointment I don't know actually when they can get me in again or even when I can have the results more than likely after Christmas now. I just feel like everything is against me and maybe trying to tell me something that maybe I should just leave it be I really don't know what to do. I'm normally a really positive person, kind of person thinks everything happens for a reason. I think I've finally reached my limit, and just think maybe would be best if I just didn't know. Would life be easier just living with ignorance? All the appointments scans and results just seem to cause more stress, but this is just about me I have a husband and daughter too, I Just don't know what to do any more. I don't think I could even face any more treatment.
Advice needed please if anybody else in a similar situation.