What does this all mean?

I had a smear test on 10th Feb and received my results yesterday saying I have borderline abnormal cells and a HPV infection. I am 28 and this is my first smear test, so it’s possible I could have had this infection for a long time?!

I am waiting on my colposcopy appointment but I worried sick, it’s all I can think about. I have a 3 year old daughter and an 18 month old son.

Recently I’ve been having really heavy periods with large blood clots that create a splash when they fall into the toilet, sorry too much info!! And also increase in discharge between periods. Has anyone else experienced this?

I just want to mentally prepare myself if I can.

Thanks for reading xx