Hi Beyondconcerned first of just want to say massive congratulations on your all clear result, so happy for you sweets!!
Thank you so much for your reply, i read them all monday night/early morning of tuesday(as I couldnt sleep and was in a state) but my oh my how complete opposite of what i thought it would be. All the nurses and colcposcopist were aboutsolutely AMAZING, so kind and patient, and INFORMATIVE. The nurse at my gp who took my smear sent me into a state of panic as she said becuase i had come off the pill in Jan 17 of this year, that i would be 100% getting a letter for referal for a colcospy....so thats when the fear started, and the mania of me thinking i had cancer as my dad died of cancer, how wrong se was and the team were livid that she gave me that information, and also that she didnt talk about HPV at all, i had to keep on digging for her to tell me that its very common and not to worry. But yes mum came along, she didnt get much sleep as because i didnt tell her about having hpv, she was wracking her brains out wondering why i was having this colcoscopy, she is an early retired midwife, and yes i know she is the best person to go to(was told many timeslol), but with all the grieving we are going through, i just didnt want to worry her, so as soon as we stepped into the gyno ward, she bumped into a few of her lovely collegues and the nurse who was assisting me was her bestie, so i got treated like a queen, but i didnt want my mum in the room, so i quickly blurted out all my fears and concerns to which she frankly said that im on the lowest end of the specturm and that my smaer picked up only slight changes, and that i had nothing to worry about as it is very common, and then she thanked me for coming as some women dont turn up out of fear. So had the colcosopy had 2 biopsies taken, and asked to look at the pictures(in my head i imagined the worst) but when i saw them there were a small bunch of cells showing to which the specialist said, Summer from what i can see, there is no cause for serious concern as when i was putting the fluids in it took a long time for the cells to show, and usually the show up quickly, but just to make sure i had to take the biopsies so we can see what stage of cell change you are at, so i personally dont epect you to come back for treatment, follow up smear in 12months, but if you do, it will be treated and monitored straight away, so please allow yourself to relax:)
I cant tell you the wave off euphoria that came over me, to the point i hugged all the nurses and colcoscopists and nearly jumped my mum when i came out, by then i told her about the HPV and understandibly she was peeved as she said i could have told her and she would have put my mind at ease, so appart ffrom feeling a little saw, 2 solpadenes later after i got home, i slept like a baby properly in the last 2months of panic.
I aslo felt so silly afterwards, because its a blessing that the NHS do free screening and treatment, and regardless of any result i get back from the biopsies im informed enough now more than ever of whats to come, but knowing that i am on the system and being treated is thanks and reasurrance enough.
So as i turn 32 next month, i can atually look forward to it now, and allow the panic,
Thank you so much for your reply again sweets, and again glad for your results!!