just need to sound off a bit, would love to hear from anyone out there!
I was diagnosed with cc on 19th September. That's me being generous because I was actually told it was likely on 26th august. It is now 26th October. I have been waiting quite patiently but today I feel I have lost the plot. I am due to have a hysterectomy and lymph nodes out etc. the more time I have to think about it the more worried I am getting about the operation, my family, my relationship with my husband. And most of all the chance that all this waiting could mean that the cancer could be spreading.
I have been on the verge of tears all day. I feel completely overwhelmed. All the early visitors and offers of support have gradually disappeared, I feel like I'm taking the mickey by remaining off work, etc!!!!!
i also feel like NO ONE understands. The terror I feel at the thought of the operation, and the fear of trying to recover with two special needs children, and the suspicion that I'll instantly be a fat, dried up old lady.
All you wonderful brave ladies out there, help!
love, Molly xxx