Hi girls, so I've been stalking this site for a few weeks, I may talk too much, I've got so much running through my mind!
i think it will show at the bottom, but if had my smear and colp, waiting for results from that as he took some off...
I'm crapping it, I haven't been tested for it I don't think but I think I have HPV, back in jan I had a few lumps that I thought were skin tags removed from my bottom, sorry tmi, but they were coming out of the hole, a couple of years ago I had about 4-5 'skin tags' removed from the front, I've got warts on my finger and thumb. But that isn't the only reason why I think, I'm quite ashamed of my past, it is really quite shocking, I'm 24 now, when I was 13 I lost my virginity, I somehow managed to sleep with 10 men from February till July, I used to keep count, after 30 men I lost count.. But I'm certain there's been over 100 men. So that's a lot of people that could have been carrying and passed it on, because of that, I'm so scared, i know that abnormal cells can take years to form into cancer, but this was 12 years ago, could it have turned into it already? I remember having the skin tags at age 15 so I must have had some form of HPV then?
I phoned doctors today but no results in yet..
im now happily engaged and living with my fiancé, I've had children, I do not see them, 2 adopted and one under guardianship Order, I am not a bad person, I never hurt my babies, it had issues but never hurt them, I feel like my whole life has just been disappointment and then this, what if I have the C and I never see my kids again? So much going through my mind
thanks for reading if you made it to the end!