I am posting again as it seems my first post didn't work.
I recently found out I have HPV and I'm being referred for colposcopy for bleeding inbetween periods (I have had this for 10 years and was always told it was normal by doctors due to the pill). I haven't had sex or sexual contact for 3 years so I am totally shocked I have HPV. I am single and I feel very depressed because now I believe I won't ever meet anyone due to having an incurable STI. I am crying every day and I can't see a future for myself anymore. I know the logical reasons for having a smear test but in some ways regret having it done because it was better not knowing. I now feel I will have to tell future partners I have this while men can go round spreading it from woman to woman without knowing or being tested.
I have started to obsess that there may be other STIs I have picked up and don't know about (although logically this is unlikely as I got tested after my last partner 3 years ago). I have always used condoms with everyone and didn't realise they didn't prevent HPV. I just feel dirty and like my life isn't worth living anymore. I am obviously anxious about the colposcopy and what the results may mean.