from christmas I have tried to pretend the date isn't arriving.. but its still been driving me mad.. Its all I am thinking about! It's finally here tomorrow.. I am soo terrified it may sound stupid.. But after Colposcopy & biopsy I felt so so low degraded & sick to the stomach!.. Everytime I think about it I just close my legs!.. I don't know whats up with me it was emotional going through it as you always think oh my god what if ect.. and it didn't hurt was a tad uncomfortable but that was it.. I am sat here now upset as I know Ive got to go back tomorrow ( work in the morning aswell - can't see me concentrating there much! ) I read online somewhere that with lletz you can have general or local but I haven't been asked, I would rather have general so I don't know whats happening but I doubt thats going to happen!.. Stressing out so much to the point I don't want to bloody go but I know I need to!.. Just wish they would of got it over and done with in 1 go!
Sorry for posting don't really have anybody to speak to about it.. just needed somewhere to let out! xxx