Too many questions Too little Answers :/

This may seem silly to those who have had to cope with worse but i dont know where else to turn to for answers. I am 25 nearing 26 and I recently received a letter informing me i have abnormal cells and signs of HPV on my cervix and have been booked for a Colposcopy. I understand that this is routine to check for any pre-cancerous cells but i am particularly concerned as it is my first PAP test and that these cells may have been present in my cervix for a long time. I have been reading into Cervical cancer and HPV and have a few concerns about this. The first being that as i am made aware how the HPV is transmitted i now know that i must have had this virus for well over a year because that is when i was last sexually active which then leads me on to believe that as a result of the HPV having been in my body for some time that there could be chances of it having developed into pre-cancerous cells already. I have also had a baby 8 months previous and although its said to be rare i worry about having passed this onto my son during childbirth. I am aware of procedures and what is routine and normal with regards to testing but this is causing me great upset and anxiety because i fear the worst and because as i say its my first PAP test i fear that abnormal cells may have been present for some time. I also spoke to my GP asking about if its possible to have the HPV vaccine who informed me it isnt routinely offered which i also understand however in certain cases i am wondering if this available?

I have my test in less than 2 weeks and since i had the results i have done nothing but worry and get upset especially thinking about HPV being passed on through childbirth. I have spoken to several people now and some have made me feel even worse because health professionals have used the term “cure” when i asked about my results and further tests which makes me think that there may be cause for concern with regards to my result and that i may be somewhat left in the dark about the full extent of it til my Colposcopy. I am also suffering lately from heavy periods and clotting and a lot of pain which feels as though it is near my left ovary and also pain in the lower back which has been there since i can remember. Also if i have been called in less than 2 weeks from my PAP does this mean that my results may be a cause for concern because i have heard it can take weeks and weeks? This is first PAP test and i am nearing 26 so this is all new to me and i can only imagine the anxiety another abnormal result will cause. Even if the result is normal i have the anxiety over it returning as pre-cancerous later on in life between the ages 30-39 as informed this is the most common age of development from pre-cancerous cells forming from HPV. Some information on HPV is also concerning as genital warts are described as low risk abnormalities however as i do not and never have had warts yet the HPV is present then i worry mine will be of higher risk grade because i have never had warts.

This is all too much to take in for me at the moment and will always be in the back of my mind now for a very long time regardless of the outcome :frowning:


I don't think it's silly to worry, it's normal in the cirumstances, and I think it's fair to say most if not all women who get an abnormal result worry about it. I don't know the answers to a lot of your questions, but I can sense how anxious you are from your message and I didn;t want to read and run.

The PAP smaer test is designed to pick up abnormal/pre-cancerous changes and if necessary treatment can be given to get rid of them. Pre-cancerous cells are NOT cancer, it's really important to bear that in mind. Did the letter say whther the cells changes were mild, moderate etc?

I think that in the UK the HPV vaccine is given before girls become sexually active to protect them, and I'm not sure how many types of HPV it protects against. If one is the HPV type you have, the vaccine possibly wouldn't make any difference. A doctor could confirm this though.

If abnormal cells are found, it's normal for a colposcopy to booked soon after, so that in itself it nothing to be alarmed about. I think it's the waiting and not knowing that's the hardest thing. 

I wish you well and hoping you're managing ok while you wait for your appointment. Take care x