So I’m 29, I have a 6 year old boy and I was told last Thursday that after my smear came back showing precancerous cells, my Dr can in fact see that I have CC but the diagnosis won’t be official until the labs say so. I’ve bee told to expect the call early this week, definitely by Wednesday.
I first went to my GP back in November 2014 with post coital bleeding, I asked for my contraceptive implant to be removed as I wondered if it was that that was causing the bleeding. They first attempted to take it out in February but had problems, they finally managed to remove it in April 2015. I was told on 2 occasions that the bleeding was due to an eroded cervix. I went back in June saying it was getting worse and I wanted treatment so finally go referred to the hospital. August 2015 I went to the hospital to have my cervix treated with Silver Nitrate. I was asked when was my last smear and I replied Dec 2012 so would be due again in Dec this year. The Dr said he would do tests including my smear so I could have them all done in one go. I received a letter telling me that that the test were clear but showed that I might have BV so another test should be done to determine if I needed antibiotics. I called my Dr and asked if I could have the antibiotics as I knew I wasn’t right. He prescribed them over the phone and after the course of antibiotics I went back and said I still wasn’t right, so he referred me back to the hospital. 2nd trip to the hospital I went through all the info above with one DR, and then another. During this appointment I was asked again when was my last smear, I explained that it had been done the last time I was there. After some investigating, 2 calls to 2 separate hospitals, it was revealed that a smear had not been done and my Dr told me he would not treat my cervix until he had the results of a smear. He examined me and told me that usually he would tell me it would take 3 weeks, but in fact its 2 and he wanted to book me in and that I was to call to confirm that the results were definitely in. Before the 2 weeks were up I was told that my smear showed abnormal cells and that they were precancerous and would need to be treated for that. I visited the hospital for my appointment this time with a female Dr and thats when I was told I had cancer.
I’m trying to stay positive but I’m finding it hard to ignore the fact that I first raised the issue over a year ago. I can’t help wondering if I’m a case of negligence either by the GP’s for not testing me or for the DR not testing me when he told me that he had. I have no idea how advanced the cancer is, so I’m sat waiting with my mind racing. I feel like I have a chest infection and I’m light headed, feeling sick - no doubt these are all down to stress but can’t help worrying if it’s the cancer and it’s progressed further than the DR’s realise.
My husband left when our son was 5 weeks old, I’m his main carer. I have parents who have just retired and have their own health issues. I have a partner who I have been with for 3 years, we’d talk of a future with marriage and more children. I want to be strong for them all, I want to be strong for myself. I’m trying to prepare for the worst so anything less will be a bonus.
I don’t know what to expect from writing all this down, I guess I just need to get it all out. x