My name is Amanda I am 34 and recently went for my slightly overdue smear. Initially went to see my gp as I had pain during intimacy, spotting between periods, back pain and discharge.
She did a pelvic exam and said you have an ectropian which bleeds on contact, she took a smear and within a week I had the results high grade dsarkosis severe with an appointment for urgent coloscopy today. I don't know how I got through the weekend, my 3 daughters were at their dad's and I felt so ill, I couldn't eat, sleep and my anxiety was causing me extreme distress.
I went into coloscopy today shaking, crying and struggling to control my anxiety which in my everday life I dont suffer with, my blood pressure was through the roof my heartrate was off the scale but the nurses were so kind, the consultant had a good look and said CIN 111 does not look like cancer. We can do the treatment now a loop diathermy so she numbed me up and put on the solution to highlight the cells, then because I was so anxious my body went into shock and she said I can't do it your insides are quivering, I will book you in for a general we will remove this and you will be ok, hearing the words it's not cancer and you will be okay is the exact words you need to hear.
I think what I am trying to say is although this might seem like the scariest thing in the world it's not, they see cervixes all day everyday and know what they are looking for so even if it seems bad and youve convinced yourself it will be it most usually is not as bad as you think, try not to panic that it's cancer although every twinge, back ache, bowel pain, tummy pain tells you it is it most probably is not, your mind can be your own worst enemy at times.
Just remember you went, you got screened and you have been brave! The changes found are very very unlikely to be cancer. I have been following some of the posts on here and in my darkest times over the past week they have given me much comfort & reassurance stay strong be brave and think positive! X