So, I just feel in a rant kind of mood.
How bullshit is it that women have to go through this?
Had a dodgey smear - had colposcopy, took biopsy after seeing some abnormal cells (nearly fainted after).
Biop came back as just inflammation and was told come back in 4 months. Only for a follow up call to say they reviewed it & i do need treatment after all- and then had treatment booked for July 7th - (4 months after my actual smear) - so strike one spending 4 months convinced i have cancer.
At no point have i been told what treatment I'm having!!
Day of my 'treatment' - pretty sure was a cone but still haven't actually been told - so my paper work says you can have a chaperone wait with you - get to St Thomas' for my fiancé to be told he can't wait, noones allowed chaperones any more - strike two!! So 3 hours waiting on my own!!!!!!!!
Had the treatment under GA, which actually was okay! Woke up asking for a throat lozenge as my throat was sore, call me naive but I didn't realise they put a breathing tube in!!!!
They said it all went well an they removed 18mm (is that a lot? I mean it sounds a lot - ALOT to me! But no one really explained anything after except it 'went well' but they won't know if it's all been removed until my 6month check up & that I should just wait for my results to come through in approx 2 weeks. Then bye you can go now!
Got home, just back ache to begin with - then 1 night I wake up with the WORST pains - thinking ofcourse I couldn't get off lightly and have no pains - only to find out a few hours later I actually am due a bowt of diarreah !!!! I mean they should tell you that's a side effect because I don't usually have the runs!!!!!!! So all the pain was diarreah related, I honestly thought I was going to pass out! Having your cervix butchered & then followed up with diarreah is my favourite way to spend a weekend.
& now a full week later, my period is due. I have had light watery pink type discharge atm - only to go loo (sorry to be graphic but i strained a tiny bit) and now I have bright red blood so I don't know if the strain has caused it or it's my period ! & I don't know about anyone else but I hate sanitary towels. How can you tell if your bleeding more than a normal period when you usually use a tampon which is all nice & self contained!!!!
Lastly, i just want a poxy bath! Roll on week 5 when hopefully I can have a lush bath bomb & long long soak!!!!!!!
WHAT IS THIS LIFE!!