Although I haven't been 'officially' diagnosed the indicators do point towards it- bleeding after intercourse and high-grade CGIN. I had my LLETZ this day last week and am back in for the results this day week (2 weeks is quick and she made the appointment right after the LLETZ was taken which makes me think that there will be further action taken and obviously they see it as urgent). Directly after the LLETZ I burst into tears, she asked me why I was crying and I said "I don't want to have cancer". She said "But I don't think you do" I am SO confused. Absolutely EVERYTHING I read says that this is going to be CC. I would not be as worried if it weren't for the post-coital bleeding, which happened twice. I have already had to take 2 days off work due to stress, I am exhausted, cannot sleep, have lost weight, can't have a conversation with anybody, am walking around in an absolute daze and have a pain in my chest from stress the whole time. I can't focus on anything. This week has been the worst week of my life and I know there is another full week of worry left. If the news is bad on Tuesday, how will I cope? I am barely hanging on to sanity here, it is like a living hell. I have good supportive friends and a good GP who I had a good chat with on Friday, he told me to calm down, he sees this stuff all the time. I called the cancer nurse and spoke to a colposcopist who said the same. They said worst case scenario is a hysterectomy in 10 years. How do they know ?? If that is the outcome I can deal with that. If not, well, I am so afraid for myself and for my parents who will have to face this with me, especially my dad. He is beside himslef with worry too. I feel so incredibly alone and I'm worried I will never get my life back, that I'll never look in the mirror and recognise myself again. At the moment I'm a total shell. PLEASE HELP guys, can anyone relate, does it get better?