Its been a while since I was on here, I have been in remission for over a year now! I went to a check up the other day and my consultant was very pleased with my progress. I habe been referred for an mri as its been nearly a year since I last had one and it's just a precaution, well this has sent me overboard I'm so worried I feel like I'm not coping at all! What if it's back? I'm too young to die? I need to see my kids grew up they are only 4 and 6 and I'm only 25 myself. I'm sorry if I am coming across as insensitive to anyone battling with a reoccurrence its not my intention to upset anyone. One of my school friends committed suicide this week and I coukdnt help but feel what a selfish horrible thing to do, when there are people like me trying to make sure I survive to be old and grey. Again I didn't mean to cause offence to anyone I'm just trying to give an insight if my brain this week. I was fine up until I was referred for an MRI life was nearly normal again and this has just pushed me back, I can't cope with the thought of being told its back, also doesn't help when you see statistics for cc stage 2b I just feel like I'm living on borrowed time.
I just need to know I'm not going insane and there is still hope for me being able to see my kids grow up and not leave my husband a widower at 30 :-(
Thanks for reading,