I just feel confused and frustrated and very, very upset.
I had my first smear a couple of weeks ago and was called back within a week. They told me I had high-risk HPV and my smear results were unclear.
I was called in for a colposcopy yesterday, and it was awful. There were three people in the room which instantly threw me off, is it normal to have three people in the room? It was late in the day and they were obviously all done with being nice and made me feel very uncomfortable, very worried and the least relaxed I've ever been. I suffer from a bladder condition and I'm used to being in that sort of situation on a regular basis, but I really felt like cattle.
I think I've had a suspision that something hasn't been right for a little while - I have very irregular periods, some extremely heavy. I suffer from back and stomach pains and I get weird discharge a lot.
When they started the colposcopy, they all went very quiet. She put several different dyes on me, and each time shook her head and asked for other ones. She said she was going to have to do a biopsy then and there, and took quite a substantial chunk of my cervix away without any aenesthetic. I've been bleeding and cramping since and haven't been back to work.
She said she can't be sure what stage the cells are at and we'll have to wait for the biopsy results to come back.
I'm only 25, and I am desperate for a family. My boyfriend and i are very much in love and I'm now thinking that I'll have to start a family sooner rather than later.
If anyone has any advice, experience, help to offer I would really appreciate it. I am absolutely terrified.