Good evening Gorgeous ladies.....
Not sure why I am feeling like this....I am starting to think its all the waiting.. Even though I am still working full time up until my treatment starts, the more I am waiting for my treatment to start, the more doubt I seem to be having, and faith in the treatment which I'm going to get.
As most of you know my journey I don't want to bore you yet again with the details, but I have been now diagnosed with 3b cc as the pesky thing has started to make its way ro my uterus... Now I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, as everyone is different & Mon two cc are the same.....BUT ..... I just want my mind to be put at rest really... There seems to be a lots of 2b cc ladies, but there doesn't tween to be any 3b ladies lurking around ....not really sure what I'm getting at or why I'm now writing this ... Lol....
Im feeling a little hacked off at the moment to say the least .... I started bleeding in between periods last July, & everything the hospital has done since then has always been 'routine' & 'non urgent' ... Maybe if I was classed as urgent, I might not be in this position now!!! When I was finally diagnosed they have been pretty quick with my scans etc, but again I am left waiting ...although they have got to start treatment before 28 April, as that is my cut off day.
i I think I am getting my knickers in a twist over nothing, and just want to get started.... My consultant is extremely positive & seemed very proud that this type of treatment (radio/chemo/brachytherapy ) has a high success rate & works .... I s'pose I'm entitled to an off day .... Sorry - probably makes no sense at all.....
love & hugs
x x x
Hi Samantha,
I did'nt want to read and not comment. I've only been on the site for a month and I'm still awaiting my results and like you I started bleeding between periods and have always had normal smears too.
I cannot even start to imagine how you are feeling but I can completely understand about all the waiting around. You must be really angry, confused and completely cheesed off.
Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you.
Kerry
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Hello Sweetheart,
Yes, waiting is the worst and your mind does do all sorts of bonkers things to you. It all makes perfect sense in crazy 'cancer world'...
One idea is to think about taking some time off work before your treatment starts, if you can, and to ideally do something fun and distracting. I know it sounds silly, but if you don't feel so well later, you might wish you had made the most of this time. If necessary, I'm prepared to bet your GP would sign you off. It might be a weekend away with your main squeeze or a spa day with your friends or just time to spring clean the house and get the freezer stocked with your favourite homemade dishes. I bet you aren't really concentrating on work anyway!
I was due to have surgery in early December so I had an open house/party to celebrate Christmas beforehand. Getting prepared for that was great distraction for me and it was a lovely chance to see everyone before my treatment started.
I also had a day with a load of friends round to tidy up my garden for me because I just didn't have the heart, and the thought of spending my recovery looking our at a scruffy jungle was too much to think about. I might have been exploiting them a bit, but they did ask if there was anything they could do.... and I did feed them home made soup and bread and cake to thank them. When I was feeling a bit lonely and sorry for myself during recovery, I found looking out at my tidy garden a very reassuring sign that people cared about me. Needy thing that I am. 
Sorry if that all sounds a bit flippant, but I really found it helpful to surround myself with people I like and to keep busy. Hope the time passes quickly for you too. You can do this.
Big hugs xxx
p.s BTW -There are fewer 3b ladies around here but I think that's mostly because there are fewer of you to start with, so please don't worry too much about that. Take your consultant's positivity as the good sign it is! x
Hello Samantha I understand just how you feel as I'm sure most of the ladies on here do too.... The waiting really is the worst part....especially the waiting for treatment!!
Sure you know my story too...my cancer was re diagnosed the day before my radical hysterectomy...it had spread into my pelvic wall... So surgery was no longer an option!!
I expected my treatment chemo/rads/brachy to start the day after my oncologist...I had no idea of the planning involved...& it seemed like a lifetime until I started!!!
I worried all the time when I was waiting for it to start...everything went through my head...think I had got my head round the thought that the op would 'take it all away' & this was a second option.
My consultant was and still is so positive that the treatment is so effective if not better!!
Please try & stay positive (it's hard I know...I used to want to punch people sometimes when they said that!!)
It will come rounded soon & be finished before you know it!!!
As rosehip said can you take a bit of time off work before.....I did & it did help me too.
Lots of love
K xx
Hi Samantha - The important thing to focus your mind stage 3B is curable they have the technology and ability to specifically target your treatment with microscopic precision. My Mother in law was diagnosed with cervical cancer in the sixties at the age of 41 when all they had to look inside the body were xrays. She had RT which they were not able to target as precisely as they are Today and survived another 50 years. Sadly she passed away a couple of years ago a year short of her 90th Birthday. Have faith when they tell you the treatment is very very good they know what they are talking about. Also make use of the support network at your hospital and seek professional reassurance. Take good care of yourself x x
Hi Samantha - The important thing to focus your mind stage 3B is curable they have the technology and ability to specifically target your treatment with microscopic precision. My Mother in law was diagnosed with cervical cancer in the sixties at the age of 41 when all they had to look inside the body were xrays. She had RT which they were not able to target as precisely as they are Today and survived another 50 years. Sadly she passed away a couple of years ago a year short of her 90th Birthday. Have faith when they tell you the treatment is very very good they know what they are talking about. Also make use of the support network at your hospital and seek professional reassurance. Take good care of yourself x x
Hi Sam, sorry your feeling a little rough right now - you are entitled to though and we all understand that. I agree with all the comments, especially the point Rosehip made about taking tme off. As soon as I was diagnosed I just couldn't face being in an office full of people etc. I also wanted to use the time to rest and get myself 100% ready for treatment - mentally & physically. You have to do whats right for you though xx
Thank you all girlies for all your positive responses..... I have my marking scan tomorrow & meet the radio therapists etc .. They are looking to start treatment on 29April ... This gives me time to finish up at work next week .... Off thurs/fri & out with my friends on the sat as a pre b'day night out..... Result ! LLoll thank you all again & I'll keep you informed ! Probably have lots more questions & doubts along the way....
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Sam - Enjoy your Weekend and take good care of yourself. Whi;st your socialising forgive the people that mean well but maybe say the wrong thing let it wash over you as its not important. What is important is the expert care and World-Class treatment you are going to get.. Keep asking for support from whoever you feel helps you as our own personal thoughts are the hardest to overcome but they can be lessened by talking to the experts and people who understand. Regards work get a new perspective you are much more important. x x
Loads of good advice already posted, so all I wanted to do was comment on your observation about the lack of 3B ladies. The staging is all about location. And I suspect the difference between some 2Bs and some 3Bs might only be a matter of a few tiny millimetres. It could also be the case that there are 2Bs and even 1Bs who have larger tumors than 3Bs. So try (haha) not too worry too much about that.
The 7 weeks of treatment I had passed very quickly. I kept very active and only suffered a very little with digestive problems. I found the steroids (given with the chemo) messed with my head, so I cut down the dose being given to a third. Now, 4 months after treatment, it seems like a hiccup in my life.
Very best wishes
Thanks Kaz & lost in France ..... I will most definitely enjoy & live it up when I can ..... Thanks again for everything ... Wish I could give you all a massive hug... But a virtual one will have to Do ....
love & humongous hugs
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Hi Sam,
Just wanted to wish you all the best with your treatment. I am a 3b cc survivor and there are some others on here too! Just get all the treatment behind you and then you can get back on with the rest of your life 
I am back working and am very well. I am sure that you will be too.
Good luck,
Julie
