Please bare with me this is my first post and it might be long.
I'm 25, I have a 5 year old and a 3 month old and had my first smear once my baby turned 12 weeks. My family history - my mum had abnormal cells from 14 resulting in a hysterectomy at 29, her mum (my nanna) had either cervical or womb cancer and had a hysterectomy at 24, and her mum also had cancer and a hysterectomy. About 3 years ago I was bleeding after sex, My Dr did a smear however it wasn't tested due to my age, They arranged a colcoscopy instead which showed cervical erosion. Anyway I had my smear about 3 weeks ago and it came back with abnormal cells (Didn't say what cin) I went for my colcoscopy Tuesday the doctor said it had showed something which I can only think was cgin (he said they were querying this and that it was rare because the cells are far up and aren't usually shown on a smear) he wanted to do a small biopsy due to my age, however when he went in he said he was changing his mind due to 90% of what he could see being covered in abnormal cells (which he also said for my age isn't common which panicked me!!) So instead I'm being booked in for GA and a biopsy done then. He said he would struggle to stop the bleeding whereas under GA they can deal with it. I'm not sure he mentioned lletz or anything either just a biopsy. I don't really know what's going on or what to expect.
I'm absolutely pooing it. I'm so scared of what they have seen. The doctor seemed so blunt and abrupt. It doesn't help I work in a hospice and I just keep picturing myself dying. I hate the wait, I suffer awful anxiety as it is. Can I have some positive stories please I'm so so scared I won't see my boys grow up.