Hi ladies, so i posted just after new year as my smear showed low grade dyskaryosis and HPV, obviously I was very anxious but after a couple weeks and reassurance (sort of) I've been doing ok. Finally heard back and my colposcopy is in 3 weeks (Feb 16).
When I think about it I get so sad and anxious, I mean not so much about the actual examination but I'm just terrified they tell me I have cancer and that I can't have kids (I have no children).
I've been reading stories in the news of terminally ill women who are younger than me, and I just thought of jade goody and how she was younger than me when she died and how apparently all her tests came back normal when in fact she was dying.
I can't help fearing this will happen to me. I would like children so bad and if I get the all clear I want to get pregnant straight away.
I would love support and friendship from women living with these kinds of fears too :(