I’ve just come back to this forum after years away.
I just thought is share my back story.
I’m 40 now. When I was 25 I had my first sexual partner. 3 months later I had my first smear which was CIN1. This was before the tests now that test for HPV. I had a colposcopy and was then booked in for Lletz which I had under local anaesthetic.
The results took about 4 weeks and showed it wasn’t cancer. They kept an eye on me with colposcopy tests every 6 months, then eventually I went back to tests every 3 years.
Between 2009 and 2022 I think I’ve had one result with slight changes but they went back to normal on their own.
I had my usual 3 yearly smear last year and it came back as positive for HPV but with no cell changes. They requested a repeat sample this year, which I just had done today.
My life has never been easy. I have suffered from terrible mental health since I was a small child.
I developed cfs/me in my teens but it wasnt diagnosed until I was 35.
My dad died at the end of last year and my life just seems to get harder. My anxiety is awful all the time. I put off todays test for a couple of months because of fear, mainly of the outcome.
I’ve always found internal examinations painful, as well as sex. I’ve seen drs about that too, and I can’t remember the name for it. Possible Vaginismus?
I found today painful even with the smaller speculum. I’m scared I’ll need further tests but i know HPV often clears up. My last sexual partner was 6 years ago so I know this strain was obviously lying dormant.
Anyway, thanks for having me!