Hi Libby, sorry for the late reply. I think sometimes replies just get a little lost on threads and then you pick them up late.
Sorry to hear you're not feeling too great, must be very hard going for you and I hope they're giving you some nice strong painkillers to keep you comfortable during your treatment. I love your attitude, it's very inspiring and I'm rooting for you every step of the way, just like all the other ladies on here are too :-)
Good news about your wig, have you gone for something similar to your normal hair or something different? Loosing your hair must be a scary step, not nice but sounds like you're as prepared for it as you can be. I have a horse and a lady from my village recently came to our yard and asked if she could sit with our horses in the field, she's going through instense chemo for breast cancer at the moment and wanted some alone time. She brings a blanket and a deck chair and sits in the field with our horses for a couple of hours. She sometimes brings a book and always looks very calm. I've told her about you and she sends her love. I didn't know her until about a month ago but she's a regular visitor now and I look forward to seeing her, I often join her in the field with a cup of tea :-)
I agree about what you say about listening to your body. Sharing my story in the newspaper has resulted in a few friends of mine booking smear tests they've been putting off. One of them found out last week she has CIN3 and it having a LLETZ treatment at the end of March. If sharing my story makes sure people listen and not miss vital smears then it makes it all worthwhile. You can never be too careful. I'm just so sorry things haven't been caught earlier for you but if anyone will beat this then you will - your attitude is 100% amazing and that's one of the most important tools in getting better!
I hope you're feeling a bit better and you're enjoying the milder days - the daffodils are out now, spring is on it's way at last! Sending you my love, Lucy xx