Well I have my appointment with the consultant on Thurs to discuss the results of my scans and to discuss treatment. The closer it gets the more scared I am. I have to say I have surprised myself at how I've dealt with the news that I have CC. I still feel like it's not hit me properly. I've not cried as much as I thought I would. I don't feel as though im not dealing with this in a normal way. I am a very strong and stubborn person and I won't let this thing beat me but as strong as I am,I am petrified. I'm scared about the treatment and how it will affect me I'm also scared Incase things change between my boyfriend and I. I feel I owe him a lot as if it wasn't being with him I could have been sitting with CC a lot longer. I'm just having one of those days and I can't sleep so thought I'd come on here.
Anyway thanks for listening.