It’s been a very anxious few days, I received my smear results last week and came back high grade dyskaryosis have been booked in for a colposcopy Wednesday 16/12/15 with possible treatment! As many of you have expressed from reading others posts is that this time is completely and utterly terrifying!
I’m only 24 and also a nurse and I think being medically trained has not helped at all as my mind has wandered wildly!
I have found it very difficult to concentrate on anything else lately a part of me simply cannot believe that I’m 24 first smear and this is happening to me! I have colleagues that have also been through this however they have had their treatment under GA! I was wondering is it your personal preference wether to have treatment under local or GA? Or does it depend on the size of the area being removed? As I would prefer not to go under a GA as they frighten me
I’m hoping everything is going to be ok Wednesday I have convinced myself of all sorts and also feeling so numb and alone everyone is so supportive but the way I feel atm is I could be in a room full of people and still feel alone! Sadly i live away from my mum as I live in north west England and she lives in South Wales and she can’t be with me at the colposcopy but my friend will be there!
I just keep thinking they’ll be startled by how much is there or they have to schedule me for GA because there’s too much and being this close to Christmas also I’m just so so scared and any words of advice or support will be greatly appreciated