So I received the results of my LLETZ early on Friday after a call from the hospital to come in on Weds afternoon. His words were "its not good news, we've found cancer cells". (Good start hey!)
I have never missed a smear and they have always come back clear although my last one last year, she said it looked like i have cervical erosion. I then went back to my GP in june this year due to bleeding in between periods. The consultant said on Friday that the initial biopsy had only shown CIN 2 and 3 changes, no cancer. Its only when they have analysed the LLETZ they have found cancer cells and graded it at Stage 1 A 2. I have been referred to a specialist womens hospital and have to have an MRI. The womens hospital will decide the next course of treatment but it's likely to be a hysterectomy.
2 days on, i have been through a rollercoaster of emotions - convinced myself that the MRI will show i am riddled with it and they actually missed it at my last smear. Then I become more rational and think my staging isn't so bad and though it may change after the MRI, would it really change so dramatically?? One of the things i am focusing on is that I had a womb scan last month looking for fibroids and they said my womb was completely clear.
When i think back to when i was told now, i think the consultant was more concerned about telling me about possible hysterectomy as he specifically said "you have 2 children already, yes?" And "we would aim to leave your ovaries in place". Or am i just clinging on to ne hoping that he thought telling me i couldnt have any more children would be worse??
I'm just up and down all the time. I feel like it occupies all my thoughts and i normally have a rational common sense approach to everything. The idea of a hysterectomy doesn't bother me at all. I just want it sorted!