I was diagnosed with cc 1b1 Adenocarcinoma in December 2013 , I had a radical hysterectomy , no further treatment. In January this year (2015) I was sent for a routine 12 month ct scan which I had in March , This picked up a left overian cyst, I was advised " it looked OK " I had this removed at the beginning of July , end of July I was told it was actually cancer and that the cervical cancer had returned to my left ovary.
I was then sent for a PET scan which came back clear, but my consultant said that " the resolution of the scan is not that great and microscopic cells could still be there that the scan wouldn’t of picked up"
I began 5 weeks of chemo and radiotherapy in September which finished 16 th October , my consultant wasn’t going to scan me again as he said this was pointless as if cancer was present I would be palliative now and palliative early treatment would not prolong my life , I couldn’t accept this and so went to my GP with my concerns , mentally I needed to know how the treatment had gone and if any cancer was there , my gp agreed to a ct scan which I’ve now had and came back clear , good news then I thought
I’ve recently seen my oncologist who although says he’s delighted the scan was clear , still points out that the scan wouldn’t pick up microscopic cells and advises me again that if this cancer does come back again it will not be treatable and I will be palliative ,
I should be very grateful the scan was clear and I am , I’ve read some awful stories about recurrent cervical cancer and the poor prognosis and I do consider myself very lucky it was caught early again and was able to treated but I just can’t get out of my head the what ifs ,
What if there is microscopic cells still there ? There’s no third chance for me as the consultant says I will be palliative , the thought of being diagnosed palliative terrifies me ,
I’m just not handling this well at the moment , feeling very low and thinking about the microscopic cells that may still be there and growing , I hate feeling like this and feeling so negative when I should be smiling and positive as I’ve had the best possible outcome for this the second time round .