I received my cancer diagnosis mid August and think I was initially in shock/denial as was very practical minded about it all and not upset.
Since the MRI coming back clear you'd think I'd be more upbeat but the past week I have been feeling so low and at times absolutely terrified. I'm booked to have my cone biopsy on 9th March but know I will need a hysterectomy in the future.
I'm ok when with people and keeping busy but my mood is yo-yo-ing all over the place and on the whole I'm feeling very low about myself in general. I'm a single mum to a 6 month old baby boy and just feel like my life is a complete mess in every aspect apart from my beautiful son. Sometimes I wonder what the point of me is. Having cancer on top of the difficulties that go along with being a single parents is tough and I just keep thinking why me? The last few years seem to have been problem after problem, I just want life to go right for me for once and to feel good about myself and that I deserve my place in the world.
Sorry for the woeful rant, feeling very down on the dumps today.