I really want to echo what Sylvia said the other day - thank you to all who have posted so positively and helped me prepare for tomorrow.
I've had quite a difficult journey recently and hence not posted too much, I found my consultant to be grumpy and bossy when she told me that the RH was needed, overdoing the negatives and yet expecting me to just tag along. I was too upset to ask any coherent questions. I put her manner down to the stress of a late running clinic but she had really scared me about the R Hysterectomy without me understanding why it was needed when the cancer was so small. In the end I postponed the surgery as she was on holiday and I could not see her to discuss. I had also developed a horrid cough and I see now that it was stress related with the surgery looming. I saw her last week and she seemed cross, again not asking how I was and almost mocking me I felt. I did get my questions answered as I had written them down. Phew but it knocked me sidways. She gave me two surgery dates and I said I would let her know the next day which took all my courage, she tried to pin me down there and then.
Ironically I teach about informed decision making as part of my job as an antenatal teacher! Glad I can rant here as I don't want to carry it around with me tomorrow.
In the end I decided to go in tomorrow and get it all over and done with. It means a consultant who I have not met as mine is on holiday for three weeks. The nurse says he is gorgeous and that he has tried phoning me to introduce himself which is really kind. So I'm in first thing! Bit nervous on and off. Will fill you all in afterwards - love and best wishes to you all,