Where to start! So my consultant has told me that my treatment will be a Radical Hysterectomy and lymph nodes out.... Not too sure how I feel about this. Some days I think great let's do this just take it out and other days I'm thinking Nooooo. I had a large top hat cone biopsy a d and c and an eua two weeks ago. He has told me he can't do anything for 6 to 8 weeks until I heal. I feel like I'm on a horrible fairground ride and I want to press stop and get off. Funny how you see peoples true colours at times like this too. I'm exhausted and as Ron Burgundy puts it.. I'm in a glass case of emotion. And I really want to just squash the evil cancer leprechaun that sits on my shoulder all day long doing a little jig singing you've got cancer you've got cancer you've got cancer. Like a throbbing headache. I think I'm getting a delayed reaction to everything. Its funny how some people are so devastated when you tell them you have to have a hysterectomy and others are like oh that's great news and so casual about it... Like your after telling them your getting the hard skin on your foot removed. And I have gotten special intention holy cards from someone I haven't met but some of my close pals can't even pick up the phone and ring me ! Cancer schmancer. Sorry for the rant!