my pre-op was completed today, still no surgery date but it will be in the next few weeks, oh the suspense!
i was there for about an hour, and the sister that dealt with me was nice enough but (always a but right) i would say she was general pre-op assessment sister and not one who deals with us cancer gals. So none of the questions i wanted to ask were really answered. To begin with i think she thought i was just in for a general hysterectomy.
So i was told that on the day of surgery i will report to another department as the robot (sounds so sci fi) is in another part of the hosptial. Also i will be just dropped off and no one can stay with me, now this is the part i'm most distressed about for some reason. That i'll be left alone with strangers while waiting to go in for what is one of the most scariest things i'll probably encounter in life. And i may not see a familiar face until visiting hours later that day. i know it sounds silly but in my head i thought that my partner would be able to wait with me until they took me down for surgery and when i came round i would be able to see him also. i'm not sure if this is naive of me. i lived in the states for 10 years and my first husband went through a series of serious operations prior to his death and i was always there when he went to surgery and then when he woke up. Also i now think that i won't get to see my consultant until the day of surgery and i still have some questions in my head, he told me the size of the tumour but it didn't have clear margins, what does that mean if it didn't have clear margins surely they can't size it?
Also the restrictive visiting hours seem a little draconian plus my children will not be allowed to visit.
anyhoo, typing it all out knowing someone who understands will read it seems to make me feel better. and i apologize for the ramble