I got a call to say that i had an appointment the next day to see the consultant, i know its hard but try not to stress yourself out too much a lot of ladies come back with clear margins which means the extra tissue they took with the LLETZ is normal and they removed all the abonormal cells.
Im sure if you give the colposcopy dept a call and ask if they have received your results back and they will say if they have or not, your heart is always in your mouth whenever you speak to the doctors about the C word i know.
I have an amazing husband who has been at every appointment with me, he makes me feel calm even though i know he was worrying about it. When i was alone i would cry and started thinking the worst, best to not be alone with your thoughts and worries but in some strange way it help me prepare for bad news if you know what i mean? I am one of these people who likes to know what your up against so you have time to figure it out in your head. I felt weird because they told me i had stage 1 after they had taken it away so i could never say i have or had cancer as it didnt seem real.
I am starting to worry about the meeting on Wed with the consultant, she has this calming voice. She did my lletz and said there would only be a very small chance it would come back as cancer so it was unlikely, but it did... i went back for my chat about the scans and how much cancer they had found and said it was unlikely it would have spread but i still had abnormal cells on the outside of my cervix which would need a cone biopsy. I had my scans and they came back clear or normal which ever they like to say, but this came from the cancer nurse who isnt a doctor so i just have to hang on to the hope that my scans are clear and that i only need a small treatment for the next part..... i will keep you posted on that one!
It is very scary and you will always think of the worst case as thats what we do, this site is a great help and a comfort to know that even if we get cancer the survival rate is very very high and that once we have made that first step of getting checked out we will be on their radar until they feel we have been clear for long enough.
Any questions or if you need to chat about worries and stuff i am here, i always check the site and have a read of peoples posts and try to reply if i think i can provide comfort :-)