I've found this site such a fantastic place of advice, information and support you are all amazing.
I am now 5 weeks post Lletz, I had an awful first 3 weeks of recovery and almost 4 weeks of discharge and bleeding and I'm now going through the period from hell!! Anyway I received my results, CIN1 and repeat smear with GP in 6 months....great news...but I just don't feel like me anymore, I don't know how to describe it, I used to have quite a high sex drive and since my initial smear results I haven't been bothered by it at all, now the 4 week ban is up my husband is chomping at the bit but even the idea of it scares me. I joke that no-one is going up there again for a long time, he laughs it off but I'm not a fan of anything going near there!! I've also been so much more emotional than usual and I feel daft as my results are good so everyone assumes I can just put it behind me and carry on but I feel it's had a deeper impact on me.
Has anyone else experienced this?? I know there are plenty of ladies that are going through so much more but I just feel very alone.
Hope all you lovely ladies are all doing well xx
Im feeling the exact same.
I have my 6 month follow up in october. I had cin3 excercised at all margins. But i keep thinking in my head that come october its going to be back and worse.
My sex drive has virtually gone. The times we have tried it i get so into my head about i cant tell if sometimes its uncomfy because im not in the right mindset or because something is wrong. Its worse etc.
Its kinda feels like sex like part the cause it got that way. And somehow doing it again feels like it will make it happen again.
I have this constant fear im going to be told im dying in October.. I havent felt like me since it was done its all i think about.
Your not alone
Thank you for replying, it's comforting that I'm not alone in all this. I'm now over 7 weeks post and still not feeling like me, I'm tired alot, I don't know if related to all this or not, there are a few other things going on in life at the moment so it couple be a combination of everything. I still haven't attempted sex, I literally couldn't be fussed about it, I don't even like the thought of anyway touching down there.
How does your partner cope with it all? I'm not due my check til January so trying not to think about it too much. I just want to feel like me again!!